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Madness

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...I WANT TO DIE! ...
by *Kasabe
Let me knowIf you don't want me,  
 
Please let me know, for I can't fall any lower,  
This pain reverberates through every bone and evey nerve.  
Can I get any slower,  
for I didn't see it until it was too late.  
 
Please let me know, I love you to much.  I feel rejected and forgotten  I miss your calm touch  for we haven't been that close.  
 
Please let me know, I don't want to lose you  but to survive, I may have to leave.  
I feel so blue  without you there to comfort me.  
 
Please let me know, I don't want to go on like this.  
but I'd rather this than not Let me know
by *Kasabe
If I LeftThe trio becomes a couple  
and everything becomes more manegable   
The world keeps spinning  
but I don't see it.  
 
The pain I cause  will cease, You'll be free.  
 
The worry I cause  
will not be an issue.  
 
The despair I wallow in  will be nothing but the past.  
 
And the memory of Bethan Rose Connelly  will fade like yesterdays news. If I Left
by *Kasabe
For Me.For her- October,  For me- June  
 
For her- Love  For me- Duty   
For her- Hope  For me- nothing   
For her- intimate talks  For me- angry rants   
For her- Equality  For me- Inadequecy.  
 
For her- Tender love  For me- No devotion.  
 
For her- the love and safety of many  
For me- the dissapointment and pain of one.  
 
For me: All I want is to go back to the way we were. For Me.
by *Kasabe
What I did...I told you about the others  not to show that I've moved on,  
but to make you jealous..   
I showed you the fun I was having  but it was all a lie  I wanted to see if you cared  
 
I spoke about the love I felt  
but I made it up,  
when in reality I felt alone  
 
I made it seem like I didn't need you  but I do,  
I feel so alone without you What I did...
by *Kasabe
Abandoned.I still feel abandoned,  left to rot on some desolate plain.   
I feel like a kid sister,  
the one always buts into personal convesations   
I feel no love from you  like I'm nothing but a lonley watcher  
 
I feel unworthy  to even speak to you and your friends.  
 
I feel so much pain  from losing you and my support network.  
 
I feel so lost  without you guiding me, like you used to.  
 
I feel so alone,  
I've lost my brother, my friend and my hope.  
 
I still feel the world on my shoulder,  
I'm the only on taking the strain. Abandoned.
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The feeling.

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 21, 2009, 5:15 AM
I tried again last night, I was so close, until the bleeding stopped.

I felt so angry, upset, worthless...You name it, I felt it.

I had cut, and I was just settling down to go to sleep when I got told that my two best friends had gone out to see a movie and then gone for a sleepover- I wasn't even asked If i wanted to go...That really hurt.

And even though I didn't want to see the movie and I was in some pain-If they had rang me or texted me or something and asked if I wanted to go I would have gone because they are my friends and they wanted to see it. I would have sat through two hours of the Numa Numa song for them, I haven't seen them much out of school lately- just the three of us... and it would have been nice to spend the weekend with them.
Because of that, and how I was feeling before- I cut again, this time, over the vein, I bled for a good 5 minutes, and just as I was about to pass out, the blood stopped. I cried so much last night, and this morning, I felt shoved to one side, like I didn't matter to them anymore.

I am still going to be their friend and I've forgiven them, but I just really hurt. and Mad, Beck- I'm not saying this to make you feel bad or guilty, I just needed to say it before I broke down again.

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I love british football, it's like my drug. I support Manchester United.
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  • Current Residence: Wales
  • Interests: Reading, writing, gaming
  • Favourite band or musician: Philarmonic Orchestra
  • Favourite genre of music: Classical
  • Favourite artist: Banksy
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Allan Poe
  • Favourite game: Dead Rising/ Left 4 dead
  • Favourite gaming platform: 360
  • Favourite cartoon character: Shego
  • Personal Quote: Who I Am Hates Who I've Been
  • Tools of the Trade: Computer/Microsoft word

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~Pwincessnaveera 4 days 10 hours ago
thank you for faving. :)

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~Pwincessnaveera 4 days 10 hours ago
thank you for faving. :)

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Seize The Day;or die regretting the time you lost
- A7x.

The Only Way Out Is Through The Pain;Madina Lake(c).
ML;RPI. :))).
=th3krimzon1 ; 'In Order To believe in Anything;You should believe in yourself first' , :heart:.
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*Kasabe 4 days 8 hours ago
It's alright :)

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The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
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~Pwincessnaveera 3 days 6 hours ago
:)

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Seize The Day;or die regretting the time you lost
- A7x.

The Only Way Out Is Through The Pain;Madina Lake(c).
ML;RPI. :))).
=th3krimzon1 ; 'In Order To believe in Anything;You should believe in yourself first' , :heart:.
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~Mad9292 6 days 6 hours ago
thnx for the fave

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Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over. - Dr. Seuss

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*Kasabe 6 days 5 hours ago
It's no problem :)

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The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
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=underworldriver Nov 7, 2009, 10:50:02 AM
:wave: hey there sweetie how have you been?

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~Save me from my fears, save my butterflies and love me forever, my beloved Styx~
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*Kasabe Nov 7, 2009, 10:59:21 AM
Hello :)
I've been doing okay :) You?

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The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
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=underworldriver Nov 7, 2009, 12:24:12 PM
I'm alright. A bit sick. but nothing i can't handle.

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~Save me from my fears, save my butterflies and love me forever, my beloved Styx~
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Remember we all have =RawEm0tion :blackrose:
I am a proud member of ~lyriclub B-)
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*Kasabe Nov 7, 2009, 4:09:47 PM
I hope you feel better soon :)

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The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
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=underworldriver Nov 7, 2009, 8:07:38 PM
I'm already feeling loads better than yesterday. I'll be fine, love.

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~Save me from my fears, save my butterflies and love me forever, my beloved Styx~
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Remember we all have =RawEm0tion :blackrose:
I am a proud member of ~lyriclub B-)
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~Pwincessnaveera Nov 5, 2009, 10:32:33 AM
thank you for faving. :)

--
Seize The Day;or die regretting the time you lost
- A7x.

The Only Way Out Is Through The Pain;Madina Lake(c).
ML;RPI. :))).
=th3krimzon1 ; 'In Order To believe in Anything;You should believe in yourself first' , :heart:.
:iconkasabe:
*Kasabe Nov 5, 2009, 10:33:54 AM
It's alright :)

--
The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
:iconpwincessnaveera:
~Pwincessnaveera Nov 5, 2009, 11:17:08 AM
:)

--
Seize The Day;or die regretting the time you lost
- A7x.

The Only Way Out Is Through The Pain;Madina Lake(c).
ML;RPI. :))).
=th3krimzon1 ; 'In Order To believe in Anything;You should believe in yourself first' , :heart:.
:iconkasabe:
*Kasabe Nov 5, 2009, 11:39:00 AM
:)

--
The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
:iconpwincessnaveera:
~Pwincessnaveera Nov 5, 2009, 2:36:27 AM
[link] this is for you lovely sis (: :heart: hope you like it :).

--
Seize The Day;or die regretting the time you lost
- A7x.

The Only Way Out Is Through The Pain;Madina Lake(c).
ML;RPI. :))).
=th3krimzon1 ; 'In Order To believe in Anything;You should believe in yourself first' , :heart:.
:iconkasabe:
*Kasabe Nov 5, 2009, 8:48:49 AM
Thank you Sis :) :heart:

--
The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
:iconpwincessnaveera:
~Pwincessnaveera Nov 5, 2009, 10:30:01 AM
:) its k.

--
Seize The Day;or die regretting the time you lost
- A7x.

The Only Way Out Is Through The Pain;Madina Lake(c).
ML;RPI. :))).
=th3krimzon1 ; 'In Order To believe in Anything;You should believe in yourself first' , :heart:.
:iconkasabe:
*Kasabe Nov 5, 2009, 10:31:44 AM
:)

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The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
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~Mad9292 Nov 3, 2009, 1:56:09 PM
thnx for the fave...feel free to look at my other work including the story i'm working on...also feel free to spread the word of my work and become a watcher

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Fellow writers go here [link]

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over. - Dr. Seuss

feel free to look at my gallery [link]
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*Kasabe Nov 3, 2009, 2:10:21 PM
It's alright :)
And I will, and Feel free to have a look at my stuff :)

--
The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
:iconmad9292:
~Mad9292 Nov 3, 2009, 2:37:15 PM
i will take a look at ur work

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Fellow writers go here [link]

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over. - Dr. Seuss

feel free to look at my gallery [link]
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*Kasabe Nov 3, 2009, 3:07:04 PM
Thank You for the :+devwatch: and :+fav:s :)

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The coroner will find ink in my veins and blood on my computer keys.

The Greatest Mistake In Life Is Continually Fearing You Will Make One

Oh look, He left a little fan boy drool on the wall
:iconmad9292:
~Mad9292 Nov 3, 2009, 4:05:32 PM
no prob nd thnx for the watch

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Fellow writers go here [link]

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over. - Dr. Seuss

feel free to look at my gallery [link]
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